Thursday, July 12, 2012

Relationships

These past couple months have been a struggle health wise. This has made me think about my relationships with family members. Its no secret that I have a non-existence one with my father. I have come to the realization that, that's o.k. There is a song by Boyce Avenue called Broken Angel that made me realize something very important. I don't have anything to prove to him. I shouldn't have to show him how great I'am , he should know. I have the most amazing step-father. He raised me and always made me feel special. He praised me for the good things and helped me through struggles. That is the man that deserves the title daddy. He has pushed me to become the best that I can be and when I fall, he pushes me back up. He taught me to ride a bike, brushed my hair, challenged me mentally and physically. Dad I'm so grateful for you and for steeping up and being the father that we needed.

I have also realized that just because my father wasn't there for me when he should have I can't blame him. I should thank him for stepping aside and letting my daddy guide me to who I am today. I, just this past weekend, have let go of the pain and anger towards my father. I think that he was put in my life to be a friend. I'm going to have to put my pride aside and try to build that friendship. If anyone would like to help me with that please do!

With that said I'm so thankful for my friends and family. You all know who you are:) I believe that everyone was put in my life at certain times to help me become who I am.  Good or bad I'm sure i learned soemthing from everyone. Thank you all for putting up with me!!!